Why mum’s need Jesus today

The main reason I've created the Devonshire Shepherdess was because I felt that Jesus asked me to. To be honest with you, if it wasn't a divine mandate from heaven, I wouldn't have ever had the idea to even do it. Sure, I really am a shepherdess for over 20 years, but the Devonshire Shepherdess is more than just a whimsical fairy tale name.

You see, as a mum to then 2 year old back in 2016, I found myself so broken physically, mentally and emotionally. I was wracked with mum guilt constantly because I never felt good enough and the shame I carried which I never knew was even there, was a heavy burden on my shoulders, and in my gut.

Shame around my past mistakes shame, I had become disabled when becoming a mum and at that point shame that I kept getting angry and taking it out on my beautiful little girl, because her behaviour frightened me. And I had no idea other than to get angry what to do about it.

In steps Jesus, my knight in bloodshed armour. How? I hear you say. Well, through our wonderful friend the Holy Spirit, the most important part of the divine nature of Jesus for those of us vagabonds who are roaming the earth. You see, if you're anything like me, I would have been classed as growing up in an English Christian home. I would occasionally go to church or chapel depending on which grandparents I was with. We went to the important times Christmas, Easter and Harvest festival. I learned the stories of the Old Testament, Adam and Eve, Sampson and Delilah, Moses and the Burning Bush number. Of course we must know that one. I sang the songs at school and said the Lords prayer before lunch.

But it turned out none of these things meant anything if we had no knowledge of the Holy Spirit. You see, Jesus came to earth in the flesh and died for you and I. You remember I mentioned my mum guilt and shame I also should have said unforgiveness of myself and others. I could not love others as myself, as the Bible suggests. Because I just couldn't love myself on any level. Sadly, I hated myself and I believe deep down many of us do.